Right now I feel peace. Bliss… 10 months after my most recent manic episode I finally feel calm. Everything around me is quiet. I sense tranquility. I feel like an angel sent from heaven.
Why now I wonder? All that noise in my head searching, longing for quietness, is gone. My heart is racing, my palms are sweaty, is all gone. Who am I? Am I the same person? I don’t know. I feel like the world around me is loud, but my inner being is still.
Peace. So beautiful, it’s like a firefly in the night sky. Not a care in the world, just the presence of oneself. Thoughts are nonexistent, just blank.
My anxiety has been soaked up by the sun. It has disappeared. I do not feel the overwhelming sensations of panic. How can this be? I was once crippled by fear now overcome with joy.
What is Peace?
Peace to me is not having destruction or conflicts, but balance and calmness in life. It means to be free from anything.
I feel like I have tuned out all the negativity around me and have turned to accepting myself. Through all my flaws, I am whole again.
My thoughts
My anxiety has gone away and I feel this overwhelming sense of calmness. My thoughts have finally slowed down. My thoughts are happy and hopeful for what’s to come.
I got to this point because I have been putting a lot of work into myself. Self-discovery has been at the forefront of my mind. I have been controlling my thoughts, not letting my thoughts control me. It has made a world of difference. Loving and caring for myself has been such an important aspect of my life.